The Art Of Letting Go

Letting go is not an art. There is nothing artistic about it. It hurts, and is way to hard to do. No one is taught how to let go. We aren't born with the ability to let go of someone or something. Letting go hurts like hell, and no one wants to do it. You may say it's easy. That you are happy to let go of that, but if you are being honest, it wasn't easy. You weren't happy about it and you wish you didn't have to. The hardest thing to let go of is a person. As much as you like or dislike it, people are needed in your life. You NEED them.
Having people in my life as been one of the best gifts from God. God has greatly blessed me with a fantastic family. 10 loving and empowering siblings. Great friends and of course him self. But I hate letting go of people. Someone can even hurt me and I can't let go of them. God has richly blessed me but I never want to let go of those blessings. I believe that some blessings can run out. God can put some one in your life, but their time there can run out. The hardest thing is realizing that.
I put up walls because I'm afraid of letting people in. Not because I don't like people but because I don't want to lose them. I would rather not have them at all, then loose them, I love people...a lot. I'll be friends with some one but I won't let them really know me.
I met this person, A person I never intend to come into my life. They were just there. They weren't even important to me. I never was going to let them in, but God had other plans. Over the course of a year they became more important then my own life. At times, I wished they cared the same for me but I refused to get hurt.I couldn't love them, I couldn't. But I did. I did love them. I loved them a lot.I finally brought up the nerve to say I loved them. and they turned me to the wall.They loved me too but they didn't love me like I loved them. I swallowed it hard and put my head down. I tried to just get past it, but I couldn't. I refused to cry. They didn't deserve my tears. But they did. I couldn't get past it an I couldn't let go. I talked to them again and again, trying to give them every reason to love me the way I loved them. But they didn't, and they never would. They even said they never would. I didn't believe them and kept trying. Over and over again they would tell me the truth and I would make it a lie. I wasn't going to let my self get hurt right? But I did. I got hurt. I got hurt a lot! Night after night,I would finish talking to them, and cry.I knew it wasn't their fault they didn't love me that way. I knew that and when they apologized, I took the blame. I put my self in the situation. They were in tilted to their own feelings and I tried to respect that.
But after today, this has to end... I hate the Mary-go-around we ride. Time after time; Night after night; Tear after tear; Scream in the night after scream in the night. This, is my art of letting go. I still deeply care for them but I can't ride the ride anymore. I love them the same, and will treat them the same as before. But I let go. it hurts, and tears well every time I think of it, but I let go. I sill hope one day they will see differently. I mean never say never right?
But here's to you my friend. Thank you for being in my life, and loving me like a friend, even when I was far from lovable. I release you....

It's a Drug and It's Addictive

 "Dear writer, I really want to ask you a question. What do you think of the porn industry and the damage/benefits it has or does to our society. What do you think it does to the individual who uses it?" 
-Anonymous 

In all honesty, I have been avoiding this question. I didn't want to try and answer it in fear I would mess it up. Say something wrong...

The topic of porn is a big and sticky topic. First off I want to say that I in no ways support the making or partaking of porn. Porn is by far one of the most harmful drugs in the world. Yes, porn is a drug. Once you start it is insanely hard to stop. But, you must realize that one can break free from the addiction chains of porn. Just like any other addiction it is very hard to break free. Not only is porn harmful to the person addicted to it, it is harmful to the person in it. We must realize that the people who are actually in the porn are real people just like us. They have hearts like us; They have souls like us; and they have bodies like us. Bodies that should not be used to sexually please every person who looks stuff up on the internet and runs across it. If we truly think about it, would we want our bodies to be exposed for the whole world to see?? Porn stars are just as important and in need of real love at we are. When in the act of partaking of porn, the people you are seeing are being wrongly treated. Every time someone clicks on porn they give money to the industry. As much as porn is addictive and you don't think you can ever stop, it is very, very harmful. Not only are you hurting yourself but you are helping hurt the person you are looking at. 

Porn has had a very negative impact on society. Society has made it seem like a "normal" thing, when it is far from normal. I recently read this article called 10 Reasons why You Should (NOT) Let Your Boyfriend Watch Porn. (Side note: I would encourage you to read it as well) The first thing I thought when I saw the title was "Why would anyone be okay with there boyfriend/girlfriend watching porn?" But I didn't really know how accepted it had become in our culture and in my own peers. When I really started researching how today's people view the use of porn, I was shocked and very upset. I'm not innocent by any means, but I also have known how wrong and harmful porn is. Teenage girls think it is "perfectly okay" for there boyfriend to watch porn. That is what they have been taught so why not. But that mind set is so wrong. Girls should not have to settle for a boy who watches porn because they don't think they will find better and its the norm. A very common lie girls believe is that every guy watches porn. This is not true at all! Not every guy dose and every girl deserves a guy who is going to be so focused on her that he won't have time to search online for a different girl. But it is not just a guy thing. Many girls are addicted to porn too, and it is just as hard for them to get out of it. Every guy deserves the same as a girl. She should be so focused on him she doesn't have time to look else where.

Porn destroys people from the inside out. People get most damaged emotionally. They start viewing the opposite sex as objects for pleasure and nothing else. 

So, I think porn is wrong. It has had a terrible affect on our society and that it hurts people. 

Porn is a drug, and it's time we start treating it like one!